Monthly Archives: December 2008

Family

I was mildly taken aback when my phone rang today and the caller ID announced that my Grandpa Graham was calling. His widow, Dorris, had called me from his cell phone a few times after he died, but it had been months since the last phone call.

Calling Dorris had been on my list of things to do for the day. She sent me a $25 check earlier this month and I had copied her phone number off the check so that I could call her home phone and thank her. She beat me to the punch, however.

The $25 check from Dorris meant a lot. Even though she was my step-grandmother and I’ve only met her a handful of times, she is – for all intents and purposes – the only living grandparent I have left.

Every time we talk she tells me she loves me which is a bit strange. As I said, we’ve only met a few times. But I’m the granddaughter of a man she loved enough to marry and a man she lost not too long ago. So I don’t question that she loves me. She’s family.

Her phone call got me thinking about what family really means.

My sister, Wendy, isn’t really my sister at all – in the technical sense of the word. She was a step-sister who took my father’s name in her late 20′s for reasons I won’t go into here. She calls my dad, “Dad.” He is her dad. And she’s my sister now. We don’t talk much – though lately we’ve been in touch thanks to the wonders of Facebook – and I rarely see her. But she’s my sister. She’s family.

And there’s my Aunt Sally – who isn’t an Aunt at all, but my mother’s best friend. Yet she cares for me just as much as my mother’s sister. She slept in bed with me the night my brother died so I wouldn’t be alone. She feels like family. And her son, Karl, I consider another cousin even though there isn’t a speck of shared blood between any of us.

Aleah isn’t my daughter. She came with the marriage. But she’s my kid and I am very much a parent to her.

And there is Sandie, my best friend, who I am more a sister to then her own sister ever was. If you ask Sandie, she has three sisters – the one that, unfortunately, came with the package deal of being born an Allen and the two, Rachel and me, that act like sisters to her.

And there is Brad, my brother-in-law, who I feel an affinity for that isn’t far removed from the love I had for my own brother, Brian.

I used to kind of feel like I was making it up as I went along, forming these familial bonds because of something that I was missing – a sibling or a cousin that lived close enough that I could see more than once every five years. But thinking about it today, I realized that I’m not making up anything. There’s the family you were born into and then the family you gather along the way to complete the circle.

Bloodline doesn’t necessarily dictate much more than who you start with.

Under The Bridge

I always loved this video. I think, mostly, due to Anthony Kiedis’ hotness. I mean, seriously, it was the best he ever looked. However, watching this literal translation I now realize that this video wasn’t good. At all…

I was blinded by the slow mo pec shot.

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It begins with the letter L

In desperate need of blogging inspiration, I asked Supergirll to assign a letter to me so that I could play her “Brought to you by the letter…” game.  Here’s how it works…

You leave a comment on this post, and I’ll assign you a letter. You write about ten things you love that begin with your assigned letter, and post it at your place. When people comment on your list, you give them a letter, and the chain continues on and on.

Without further adieu, here’s my list, all starting with the letter L, as bequethed to me.

1. Lip gloss and lip stick. Seriously… clean out my purse on any given day and you’ll find at least one dozen tubes of lip gloss and/or lip stick. (Tubes only. I don’t believe in lip gloss pots that you have to stick your fingers into… ick!) I’m prepetually on the hunt for the perfect shade ever since Aveda did away with their nude ginger color last season.

2. Lip lock. While we’re on the subject of lips… Honest to goddess, what’s better than a kiss that is so juicy that it leaves you weak in the knees? There are men that I’ve dated that I can’t remember their eye color or their last name, but I can remember certain kisses I shared with them.

3. Lambeau Field. My family has had season tickets since before I was born. It’s always a special treat to go and experience the feeling of being part of the Pack and part of my family’s history – sitting in seats that my parents, aunts, uncles, cousins and grandparents have enjoyed, as well, for years.

4. Lobster. It’s really all about the fact that the lobster is a delivery system for melted butter.

5. Lime. I love the color, I love the taste and I love the scent.

6. Los Cabos. Sun, sand, built in pool loungers, unlimited food/drink and no responsibilities. What was not to love about Los Cabos? Please, can we go back tomorrow?

7. Laughing. Nothing makes me happier than laughing a big, hearty laugh… and meaning it.

8. Love. New love, specifically. Not to say that I don’t love my old, tried, true and tested love. But nothing beats the feeling of new love and discovering that he loves you too.

9. Lotto. Oh the possibilities of suddenly changing everything in life and not having to go to work in the morning, or worry about the bills, or limiting your travels to twice a year.

10. Lola. The song, by The Kinks. My old roommate Loos and I used to sit in the front room and listen to this song on loop for hours at a time. The first few notes always take me back to a feeling of being content and happy (and, admittedly, drunk).

If I can do it, so can you. If you want to try, leave a comment and let me know. I’ll send you a letter!

Prop 8 – The Musical

You just can’t go wrong with Jack Black as Jesus.

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TFM

It’s rough business being a bleeding heart liberal… especially when doing so in the great state of Michigan. Every day is another news story, another newspaper headline, another personal story of another company gone down the tubes and another person – or 10,000 persons – losing their job. It’s depressing and it’s heartbreaking and it’s hard to keep a positive attitude when you see no light at the end of the tunnel.

I wish, just for one moment, that I didn’t care about my tens of thousands of fellow Michiganders without a job right now… just so I could take a moment to process the worry I carry about me and my family without all the extra added baggage.

Bryan’s plant has been “temporarily idled.” Meaning, he’s out of work until, most likely, March. That is, if the idling is, indeed, temporary. I have a fear it may not be and that come March, when the unemployment and sub-pay runs out, we’re up shit creek without the proverbial paddle.

Tens of thousands without a job? I can handle that… work diligently towards changing conditions, secure in knowing that I can devote my time and energy to the cause because me and my family are alright. Bryan without a job? We’ve been there and done that and I can handle it – if there’s a light at the end of the tunnel…. the possibility of him returning to his job, or the hopes of finding another one.

But Bryan being one of the tens of thousands? I can’t process both. I’m scared shitless, and sad, and sick to death of spending all day, every day, working my ass off to help others when I can’t even figure out how to help us.

And then there is my job. I can’t even say that it is remotely secure. Management is running through scenario planning right now about what we do if 1 or 2 or all 3 of the autos go under. And it’s been made clear to us, by the BossLady, that everything – every one of us, our jobs – are on the table. Not a sacred lamb among us.

So, tens of thousands… and my husband… and maybe me. It’s too fucking much.